nice neat flaming little shit.

"Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed — not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence — continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose."
phillipians 2:12-13

i believe that god created me to play music. unfortunately, the society we live in doesnt share that belief. our society would like me to do something that would make me money. and why wouldnt society want that for me? money is the one proven thing that can give you all the things you want. i suppose my problem is that i dont have many wants. i am just too focused on my needs. what i really need is to be me.

when i am on stage, im not "eric the christian" or "eric the sales associate" or even "eric the musician." when i put sticks to heads, i become "eric, the child of god." and this eric doesnt need money or fame or power or security or social status or sexiness. this eric is honest, he loves and respects all living things, he wants to serve all people, he wants to contribute to his community. this is the person i wish i were all of the time.

i dont think that someone who would give up his or her passion for a nice neat life full of money and security and predictability is in any way a real person. i think that kind of person is pathetic and spineless. this kind of person is afraid, not of failure, but of success. fuck those people. i would rather die than be one of them.

why is it that when shane claiborne lives a life of forced poverty dedicated to helping and loving others, he is criticized by christians? i think its because they are worried he might fuck up their nice neat flaming little shit. pisses me off.

peace.