this world is a blur...

i am sitting in the hookah lounge, with my voluptuous redheaded jewish firiend stephanie and we are smoking some kind of tropical blend of shisha but really all i can think of is last night, when i dreamt she tried to seduce me. i suppose its nice to know that i am faithful to sam even in my dreams.

(i am only able to write this as she has stepped out for a second) stephanie is a very sweet, very eccentric girl who is honest and beautiful and values the people around her. it is so weird that i can see so much jesus in so many people that dont necessarily believe in him, but perhaps this is what god intended.

im listening to the album, "dressed up and in line," by copeland. this is possibly the best B sides record ive heard. most B side records are a ploy by the artists record label to make some extra cash while doing little to no work (just compile the songs, figure out some artwork, and press the damn thing). this may be the case with copeland, but i frankly dont care. when listening to this album, one thing resonates in my mind: this band knows how to play some motherfucking cover songs. perhaps the highlight of the album is the slow and haunting cover of, "every breath you take," by the police. this band has a way of making songs ambient and beautiful yet heavy and destructive at the same time, something few bands can really pull off. also, if you had any doubts about aaron marsh's songwriting prowess, let the acoustic versions of "careful now," "no one really wins," and "you love to sing" be the deciding factor.

my friend zef and his fiance were in a horrible car accident a few days ago. the car rolled 6 or 7 times and landed 1/4 of a mile from the actual wreck. the guy that hit them was drunk and without a license or insurance (fucked). its strange. they walked away with only a few scratches from the broken glass. is this a miracle or a coincidence?

as i have thought about this car wreck, it has become very apparent to me, the idea of restoration coming from destruction or even destruction being a form of restoration. the ruins of a forest fire can eventually fertilize a healthier and stronger forest; a man kills an animal for food; we cut down trees to build our homes.

peace.